The Thot-Flash: Educated vs. Innate
Sunday as I was checking out in the grocery store and I casually said, “Hello!” to the kind gentleman behind me in line. He was somewhere in his late 70’s, had on what appeared to be is Sunday cowboy hat, a long beard that had stood the test of time, and around his neck was a blue tie that had a scripture written on it. He was a kind man and the combination of his warm smile and adorable attire brought an immediate smile to my face and warmed my heart. We exchanged a few words and then silently I waited for my total. Immediately as the cashier said, “That will be $43.76.”
He said, “Will you get mine too?”
Innately I responded, “If you need me to I will.”
He shrugged and said, “No, it’s all good.”
I told him that is was no trouble and that God blesses those who bless others so I was more than happy to take care of his groceries. He again said it was “ok”. Innately I knew it wasn’t. As I gathered my four bags I realized his purchase was small containing only a 12-pack of toilet paper and some Ocean Spray Cranberry Juice. I watched him for a second as he looked thru his wallet and fumbled for cash and my Innate kept nudging me to pay. I didn’t know how to pay for his groceries without embarrassing him at that point but internally my Innate was having a dialogue with me that I should pay. I turned and walked out of the store, while I was leaving the scenario my Innate was very much still in the previous scenario and I began to know I SHOULD have paid for his groceries and NEEDED to pay for his groceries. As I loaded my groceries and began to back out of my parking spot my Innate began to get louder, if your Innate is anything like mine when it gets loud you listen. So, I reach in my purse, pulled out a twenty and sat in my car waiting for the gentleman to exit. My educated mind began to interfere and cloud my mind with thoughts: “You can’t just give this random guy $20!” and “You are going to look like a stalker waiting for an elderly man to get in his car.” and “Have you lost your mind?” Just as he got in his car my educated mind began to take the lead and I began to drive off and just as I was about to leave my Innate got loud and said, “WHAT? Are you doing? There is a reason that man asked you to pay for his groceries. There is a reason you were there in line at that EXACT moment in time. There was a reason you reached out to him with a warm hello and he reached out to you for help. Now turn around and give him that twenty dollar bill!” I immediately turned around parked behind him as to block him in (now I am a crazy lady not only stalking an elderly man but barricading him in his parking spot!), I jumped of my car with the $20 in hand, knocked on his window quietly and as he opened the door I handed him the cash and lovingly said, “God wanted me to buy your groceries and I want you to have this money.” I also, told him that he was loved and that his smile warmed my heart. Tears filled his eyes and he said, “You don’t have to.”
I replied, “I know I don’t have to, I want to.” I then scurried away as to end the conversation and to assure he kept the money. As I drove off, in a state of gratitude, I silently thanked my Innate for the thot-flash that prompted me and for its persistence in the matter.
We all have an Innate or we wouldn’t be alive and we all get thot-flashes; whether or not we heed them is an individual decision. The irony is that rather than listening to Innate many people allow their educated (worldy) mind to cause an intervention and silence Innate. In The Glory of Going On by BJ Palmer, Vol 37 in Chapter 5, How Does Innate Contact Education. BJ begins the chapter by attempting to (if possible to put truly put into words) the greatness of Innate. He reminds readers that “Innate was immaculate enough to conceive, build, direct, control, regulate, and repair the building of a complete unit of a child in uterus in 280 days, surely it was immaculate enuf to tell the petty education of a few short years what to do, where, when, and why. (p. 57)” Really think about the complexity of a human, how a human begins with two tiny cells and in nine months there is a tiny person that emerges from the womb. I am awed each time I see a newborn knowing that innate had perfect intention and in the eyes of that child that intention shines. Yet, we as educated people question Innate. Because we don’t understand something and want to know when, why, where, what, and how or we wonder what others will think or how they will respond. But who is in charge?
In my opinion, the major misconception that educated beings have is that they are in charge. This could not be father from the truth. We are in charge of nothing and Innate is in charge of everything and when it all boils down it really doesn’t matter who, what, when, where, or why because it will “just be” because the intention is so.
What do you do when Innate speaks? Do you listen and act or does your educated mind cloud Innate’s perfect intention. Do you question Innate and try to get an educated meaning and understand the why, when, how, where, and what? Each day I find myself becoming more and more Innate and trusting more in more in perfect intention and realizing more and more its not about me or what I think should be. Ultimately, you have to ask yourself, “Do I trust Innate?”
Personally, I strive to be still and allow my Innate to flow from the above, down, inside, and out and trust in Innate’s perfect intention. Yes, there are times my educated mind creeps in, like yesterday when it tried it’s best to sway me, but when I silence my educated mind and allow Innate to preside I always smile and know that all is as it should be and that it is always as it is intended.
May your Innate always flow from the above, down, inside, and out.
Love. Laugh. Adjust.
Dr. Martha Nessler, Innate Girl